Chapter 24
Six weeks after that frightful
night, Julián knew that Orion was not coming back any time soon. He
had left the house with Lýkos without saying where he was going or
when he would return. Everything was fully paid in advance and there
was even a black credit card with Julián's name written on it.
Seeing one of your wet dreams
come true wasn't as exciting as Julián had believed it would be. For
him, the money, the house or his studies meant nothing. Finding out
from where or who Koiranos might have been in the past was
meaningless now.
Knowing the truth wouldn't
change his situation. He knew more than he had ever wanted to know
and he hated it.
With the passing days, the
hatred melted into fear and despair; he started to dream about the
future and the dreams became darker and darker.
Walking every day to his
lecture became a slow torture with the ever present thought that all
the wonderful things he was seeing were doomed.
He
couldn't bear the image of a city transformed into a wasteland.
Sometimes the future showed itself like a horrid dystopia coming out
of Mad Max or a headless 1984 chaos. Other times, it was a Gattaca
vision turned into a Brave New World only reserved for the elite
children and he wished for the Morlocks
to emerge from their underground caves and gobble up all the prissy
surviving humans.
The first green buttons on the
sycamore trees grew one day and Julián knew it was time to go away.
There was a world out there and
he wanted to see his own civilization before it ended. Without
thinking it twice, Julián discarded the idea of seeing the rest of
the world as he didn't know or understand it.
He only wanted to say good-bye
to all what he knew.
Julián packed a few of his
clothes in a handbag, bought an online cheap airline ticket to Rome
and left the house, just like he had done so many years ago.
This time, the only difference
was that Mrs. Potter was gracious enough as to say good-bye, promise
him she would take care of the house, bit her lips annoyed that the
poor boy had such an uncaring father, and wrap for him a large cold
turkey sandwich for the trip.
The black credit card was left
abandoned along with Orion's papers.
Julián ate the sandwich on the
plane as he read his Italy's tourist guide. He booked a shared room
in a hostel near Cola di Rienzo because the decadent ruin of a
building it was, had taken his fancy. His funds were large enough as
to pay for a room in a good place, but Julián wanted to meet as many
people as he could and a hostel full of students, also embarked on
their first discovery trip.
On his first night out, he went
out to have burgers with some American Art-students from his hostel
and ended up kissing a boy a few years younger than him against the
Vatican's walls.
As the memory of Orion's words
overpowered him, Julián ended the kissing abruptly and went back to
his hostel, determined to keep his dealings with the humans to a
nice talk and enquire about their lives and countries of origin.
He began to roam the city every
day, watching the people and writing about them; describing their
daily occupations or what he thought was being said. Every night,
Julián would meet other people and talk to them, mostly listening to
their shallow conversations or their future plans when they would be
back in their lands.
People surrounded Julián, but
he was more alone than ever.
A month passed and he decided
to head south as the days grew warmer and warmer. As the small notes
he had first written into cafés' napkins turned into several
folders, Julián bought a small laptop. He began to write there and
to update his old Facebook account, hoping his brother would see it
and perhaps it would mend their relationship.
Julián only saw that his
brother's account was full of deleted comments, especially after the
birth of his baby girl, Esperanza.
There was nothing written about
Paula and Julián worried. Most probably, his idiot of a brother had
quarrelled with the mother of his child.
Carlos was as lonely as he; all
his friends had deserted him after his marriage to a “non European”
lady. Only his mother or her boyfriend wrote something nice about the
baby now and then.
Those small brown sleepy eyes
stormed Julián's heart the second he saw the baby's photo.
Normally, babies were red,
screaming little things that never took Julian's interest, but his
niece was something different. He wanted to come closer to her, but
he didn't dare to ask. After all, he had behaved like a total jerk
with his Carlos.
In Naples Julián bought some
baby clothes, in a bigger size than the four months old his niece was
in via Monteleone, and sent them with a small congratulations card to
Orion's estate in Murcia. He didn't know what else to do to come
closer to his brother. He feared Carlos was still sore about his
words towards his now sister in law.
After giving a long thought to
the matter under the sun of Capri, Julián decided to write to Orion
and send the letter to the law buffet that took care of all his
businesses.
Dear Orion,
I've decided to travel
around Europe. I will not leave the continent, but I'll be travelling
around. I still don't know where I will be headed next but I don't
want to miss all what is to be seen.
I have given up all hopes to
change what is to come. At least, I want to keep the memories of how
it was.
Below you can find my
Facebook address and my phone number if you need to contact me or if
Lýkos feels like writing.
With respect and love,
Julián
He didn't know what else to
write. After all, the letter could be read by the lawyers and he was
officially Orion's adopted son with full access to all of his wealth.
In an impulse, he added some dry orange and lemon flowers picked in
the fragrant gardens of Capri.
'Probably
Lýkos can write. Don't know how, but I'm sure he can.'
Thought Julián when he reread the letter for the fifth time, the
doubts assaulting him once more. Was it a good idea to try to mend
his relationship with Orion too? After all, the man (?) behaved like
a total jerk with him; a ten thousand year-old despot who thought
that beating or bewitching him as the world collapsed was the noblest
thing to do.
Yet he yearned for “his red
haired giant”.
He began to blame himself for
Orion's “explosion”; after all it was his fault he had misread
the signs that indicated that his lover was losing his patience with
him; he had pulled his strings too much with his constant despise,
mean comments or taunts when his words -although misleading- or
actions had been true.
His self-imposed loneliness -as
he didn't dare or want to come closer to other people- forced him to
reflect upon his new life. He became taciturn and more aloof than
before as the many paths for his future unravelled in front of his
eyes.
In all of them, Orion was
present and Julián began to like the idea. He had loved the man when
he was only an eccentric rich-man and after all what he had been
through, Orion, the seer had remained unchangeable.
Orion
and Lýkos had accepted him as he were, never asking questions and
giving him a rare gift. 'If
they would have told me what it was, I would have never accepted it.'
Julián missed the Seer and the
Warrior with all his body and soul. He felt incomplete as his eyes
wandered through the stained glass windows of the cathedrals and
churches he visited. He saw Lýkos in the form of every black dog
that crossed his way. He dreamed about Orion every night when the
distinction between the realms became blurred and the living and the
dead ones mixed in the future or the past.
Only silence was Julián's
answer; no word came from his other two better-halfs and it drove
Julián mad wit a mix of concern and longing.
Thousands of questions boiled
inside his mind; Were they all right? Did they hate him? Did they
finally shunned him out? Would he see them again and his dreams were
nothing but a falsehood?
* * *
@CarlosStorm88
to @Juliansan91 Hello you. Thanks for clothes.
Julián
blinked several times as he reread the message on his mobile phone
not once but five times. After almost three months of no news form
his brother, Carlos had decided to message him? That was unheard.
Years ago, he would have thought that the apocalypse was just around
the corner if his brother spoke to him, but saying thanks? Then
Armageddon was scheduled for tomorrow at nine.
@Juliansan91
Hi. Glad they fit, he wrote testing the brotherly waters.
@Juliánsan91
How's the baby? He added a few seconds latter.
@CarlosStorm88
Very well. Growing very fast.
Julián
read the SMS and pondered if Carlos was in trouble again. Hopefully
nothing to do with Paula or his crazy Nazi-pals ranting over a “brown
baby”.
@CarlosStorm88
You travel a lot lately. All the good places in Europe. Were you
really at Aachen's Cathedral?
'What
the fuck? It's not the time to discuss Charlemagne,'
frowned Julián.
@Juliansan91
Yes, I saw the throne and all, but I liked more Trier and the Porta
Nigra. He wrote diplomatically.
@CarlosStorm88
Are you alone? No Koiranos?
@Juliansan91
No, the boss is away. I'm travelling on my own.
@CarlosStorm88
Good. Can you come to Spain?
'What
the hell? Is he nuts? Yes, he is.'
@Juliansan91
What for?
@CarlosStorm88
For Esperanza's baptism. It's in three weeks.
@Juliansan91
Where?
@CarlosStorm88
In a small church in Cádiz. I need a godfather. You.
@CarlosStorm88
If you want, that is.
Julián
was shocked.
@Juliansan91
Me? Did you ask Paula? We didn't part ways on best terms.
@CarlosStorm88
She's dead.
Julián
had to sit and take a deep breath at the small letters on his screen
but before he could type anything, an avalanche of messages flooded
the screen.
@CarlosStorm88
She had pre-eclampsia and didn't know till it was too late. She
didn't want to go to the doctor. Her family supported her.
@CarlosStorm88
High blood pressure killed her and almost the baby.
@Juliansan91
I'm so sorry. Didn't know. How are you?
@CarlosStorm88
Much better. Holding up.
@CarlosStorm88
Will you be the godfather? Mom can't come.
@Juliansan91
Yes, of course. Thank you a lot.
@Juliansan91
Are you still working?
@CarlosStorm88
Your boyfriend is nuts but pays well.
@CarlosStorm88
Is he your boyfriend still?
'Wish
I'd knew'.
@Juliansan91
We are taking some time off, he wrote.
@CarlosStorm88
Koiranos kicked you out?
'Not
in the strict sense of the term. He left several millions, properties
and a complete set of kiss-ass lawyers to look after me.
@Juliansan91
He's gone to the north of Europe on business. Don't know when he'll
be back.
@CarlosStorm88
Weird.
'You
have no idea how weird my life is.'
@Juliansan91
I'm in Oxford.
@CarlosStorm88
Wow. That's awesome but you were always clever.
'A
compliment? What on earth did Orion do to Carlos?
@Juliansan91
Thank you. E-mail me address and I'll go to visit you.
Once
more, alone in his small hotel room in Heidelberg, Julián's finger
danced across the screen to reread the conversation with his brother.
He
was supposed to be back in Spain in two weeks time and become his
niece's godfather. It
was hard to believe that Carlos
had chosen him but after knowing Carlos so called friends, hating
immigrants -those from Ecuador with a little less vengeance than
those from Africa or Morocco- Julián was not surprised that they
had turned their backs on his brother.
'God
riddance.'
'Hope
they rot in...' he
didn't dare to finish the sentence. Julián had enough of curses with
disastrous results. Orion hated when he did it and he suspected
somehow Orion would know he had “returned” to his old ways.
'I
hope they feel the urge to move to a third world country and help
non-white people.'
“Call
it poetic justice, Orion. Julián mumbled as his gaze fixed itself
upon the round red plastic clock on the wall wondering if he should
go by train or take a plane.
Train
was better. Past night's nightmare of a plane crashing because of a
pilot's brain becoming a jelly mass in the middle of the flight was
still too fresh in his mind and co-pilots were never truly helpful in
such a situation.
*
* *
Winter
was a good season to visit Cádiz. Although Carlos and Paula had been
sent to an estate in Murcia, the endless fields of olive trees were
too much for the young man's patience. Carlos asked if they could get
a job in the luxury hotel near Cádiz he had heard belonged to Orion
also.
The
white beaches were beautiful and the young couple settled down very
happily. Carlos, having finally found his dream job as electrician,
dropped all about his political ideas and only minded about keeping
up with his monthly payments to the IKEA.
He
was literally touching the sky with the hands when he heard that he
was going to have a daughter and couldn't understand why his friends
were so against it.
'Jaundiced
bunch of losers, that's what they are,'
he thought -and subsequently wrote- I
have a job, a beautiful wife and a baby on the way.
After
that, Carlos changed his phone number as per the police department's
suggestion; the police could do very little against death threats but
these kind of internet-“supremacists” didn't keep for long with
their harassment; it was to be expected that his “former
acquitances” would react so aggressively to his new lifestyle but
he shouldn't be concerned about it.
Still
considering that police officers, no matter how nice and
understanding they might sound, were totally nuts for believing he
was one of those Nazis, Carlos obeyed them and asked his mother in
law to move in with them to help Paula with the pregnancy.
For
some reason he couldn't grasp, his mother in law hated him at first
sight and contradicted everything he said.
If
he would say, let's go to the doctor, she would say no; that the
Spanish Health System was collapsed. If he would offer to pay for a
private health insurance, she would say they were poor and in need of
every penny for the baby.
Needless
to say, Paula went to the first controls but from the sixth month
onwards, she missed them all and Carlos became intimidated by what
was referred as “women stuff”. He had no idea at all of how
family life should be. For all what he knew, Julián had been the
only baby he had seen in his life and he didn't remember much of his
early years.
Alone
with a five days old baby girl in his arms, Carlos was clueless. His
mother in law demanded to have the baby and take her to Ecuador but
Carlos refused and stayed firm on his idea of rising his daughter
alone. The next day, he asked Paula's mother to leave the flat.
Half
a year later, Carlos decided it was about time to return to the land
of the living. He still had his job at the hotel and had found a day
care centre for his daughter. The grief over his girlfriend's death
gave him pause; as if he would carry the weight of the world upon his
shoulders.
A
week after his message exchange with his brother, Julián knocked on
his door, only carrying a simple backpack with him.
“Where's
the wolf?” Carlos greeted him as he held the door of his mini flat
open and with the other his daughter.
“Nappies
are too much for him.” Julián answered with a smirk as he noisily
dropped the luggage and extended his arms to get the baby girl. “May
I?”
“Are
your hands clean?”
“More
than yours. I
wasn't
changing anything.”
“No,
you were running after a monster size puppy with a doggie pick-up
bag.” Carlos chortled for the first time in a long time.
“Careful
with the princess, she's tricky sometimes,” he advised but Julián
didn't hear him, so engulfed as he was in the contemplation of his
niece.
Nothing
had ever felt so wonderful as that giggling baby touching his face.
Her large and shinning brown eyes locked with his blue ones and
Julián watched her in awe; he would have sworn she was glowing in
the narrow corridor.
“Are
you really serious about letting me be her godfather?” Julián
asked.
“You
ain't gonna get a baby on your own. Take this one.” Carlos moved
away to let his brother enter in the room as he picked up the
forgotten backpack.
“For
once, your father had a very good idea,” Julián softly talked to
Esperanza with a big smile written on his face. “Somebody has to
take good care that you don't fall head down from the changing table
like your papa did.” For Julián, Carlos' taunts didn't matter any
more. It was nothing more than a summer storm.
“Speaking
about fathers, do I get a new one too?” Carlos blurted out as he
slammed the door behind him.
“No,
you were not included in the package.” Julián replied distractedly
as he caressed the baby's silky hair.
“Does
Esperanza become his...” Carlos frowned, thinking hard about the
degrees of consanguinity. “Grand-niece?”
Julián
had never thought about it. “I don't know. Maybe. If I get his
money, then she will get mine at some point.” he answered
doubtfully. 'Not
that this will ever happen.'
“Wow,”
Carlos whistled softly. “Is it not weird? I mean, you're...
horizontal with your... step-father? Couldn't you marry or something
like this? No one cares shit nowadays.”
“I
don't call him dad in bed, if that eases your fears a bit,” Julián
sighed tiredly. Orion
fixed his attitude but not his brain. The man can't work miracles.
“I
guess Orion didn't want to split in half his fortune if we divorced,”
Julián smirked. “This way, he can cut me out of his will. Roman
patricians were doing something like this.”
Lord,
five lies in four minutes. Mom didn't ask so much. She was happy with
the money.
“That
makes sense... In a twisted way.” Carlos frowned again. “Can't
you... get a normal boyfriend? I've given up to the idea you get a
girlfriend.”
“I
came all the way from Germany to be your daughter's godfather. Do we
really need to go through all this?”
“No,
no.” Carlos rose his hands defensively. “At least, that explains
why nobody cried at the hotel when I said I needed another monthly
leave. Don't get it to your head, Julián. You might be the boss' new
“son” but I'm not taking orders from you.”
“I
won't waste my time trying to get you to understand a simple order.”
Julián smirked.
“Loser.”
“Asshole.”
“Little
prick.” Carlos chortled amused at their old exchange, this time
without any ill thoughts between them.
“I
really missed you all these months, old prick” Julián admitted. It
was good to be back in the land of the living, if only for a short
time. Orion would have never taunted him like Carlos did or even
speak his language.
“Me
too and don't use such language in front of her.”
The
baby started to vigorously wriggle in Julián's arms and he looked at
her amazed at her strength.
“It's
time for her bottle,” Carlos shrugged. “You can start practising
your godfathering skills by giving her one. It's easy. I'll show
you.”
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