Chapter 4
June 18th, 2009
Four or five days had passed in confinement and Guntram was on the edge of his nerves. Outwardly, he looked sad but composed, but inside, he bore a murderous rage against his jailers and against himself for being so stupid as to believe Repin's lies. The frustration was building up with each passing day. Although he was not locked in his room and was allowed to walk through the house; to the interior garden, the dinning room or to a small atelier where he was supposed to paint, Massaiev was with him all the time, making sure he “behaved” and swallowed his pills. He was sure the drowsiness he felt on a permanent basis had nothing to do with his heart failure; the medications were responsible, but the doctor blamed it on the wet and slightly hot weather.
Guntram had no idea of his whereabouts. Not even the continent. He couldn't identify the plants around or the colourful birds he had seen through the windows. The river meant nothing to him and the servants spoke only Russian. There were some armed guards around the house, but the dense jungle was enough deterrent. He had seen a small muddy road, but to obtain a car he would have to fight with several of the Russian apes.
Constantin behaved very civilised, trying to engage him into small talks about art or his latest project with Coco's -'how can he know about it?'- or the few sketches of some plants he had made to keep Massaiev off his back. Guntram felt like dying every time Constantin caressed him languorously or tried to embrace him. He had shown his disgust and contempt, but the Russian didn't care at all, and kept on with his advances.
The first time Constantin tried to kiss the boy, Guntram pushed him away and Repin lost his patience, almost breaking his left fingers when he bended them in retaliation. Guntram spent the rest of the afternoon locked in his bedroom with his hand wrapped with an ice pack. His caretaker told him that he should better apologise or the Swedish prisoner would pay for him. Guntram didn't believe him until he was taken, with several brutal pushes, to an underground cell he had no idea that could exist in the house. Without any natural light, Soren Larsen laid in the floor, dirty and severely beaten. “That's nothing compared to what we could do, child,” Massaiev whispered in his ear as he gaped at the prone form. “Think well before you do anything.”
Guntram apologised to Constantin that same night and let him kiss his cheek and embrace him, dying on the inside, while he made the effort to keep his frustration and rage tears at bay. 'Konrad threatened and raped me, but he never did something like this.' Since that night, Constantin came to sleep to his bedroom and informed him that once he was “less wild” he could move to the master bedroom with him. Guntram was well aware that the only thing preventing his jailer to have sex with him was the doctor's recommendation of two weeks bed rest. He feared what could happen when the grace period was over.
Guntram was desperate to escape but he had no idea of how.
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